Showing posts with label autumn. Show all posts
Showing posts with label autumn. Show all posts

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Another Hundred People Just Got Off of the Train....

My life never ceases to be a whirlwind of excitement and drama in some fashion or another. Two summers in a row were marred beyond repair, and yet, I have survived. That's what I've decided I am... a survivor. I've been to hell and back, and I think I'm finally at a place of comfort in who I am once again.

Karma is also a bitch. I paid my dues. I went through the bad times, sucked it up, dealt with my shit and it's finally paying off. I know I'm a lot different than I used to be, and I'm becoming more and more ok with that, because I can remember who I am.

I started to think my philosophy on people and life was wrong. I now think that I should always trust my beliefs. People do not change; they forget who they are. The difference is in whether they then remember who they are. Some will, some won't. I became the very epitome of the type of girl I hated, and could not figure out why. When I did, I was disgusted with myself. How could I allow myself to think that way, act that way, become that kind of person even? Furthermore, how was I to break free?

Thank God for my cousin. She helped a lot.

Yeah, some people will never remember who they are. The future will tell all. Despite the cloud cover, today is a good day. A VERY good day.

:D